Life is simple,
It's just not easy.



Suddenly, got the urge for me to blog again.
Talking to baby today about life, made me think a lot today.

Is it so vulnerable to all the splinters and blisters?
Is it strong enough to just overcome everything and anything?
Life.

It's so simple, yet
Just yet,
No one know the answer, to correctly answer to every life question coming my way.

It's not about just being happy with what I have.
I want to be happy with what I have and what I want.

I guess
I guess &
I guess.

My life question was never answer clearly.
Till now, so vague.

Yet,
I push myself already,
to live each day life I'm not gonna live tomorrow.

It's amazing the way things are now.

I've decided that I'm not going to ever care about family, parents.
They are too much of a bother and its always the "adults' business"
It will never ever involve us 'kids', even when I am fifty years old.

Cos, no matter how much affair my father have or whatever shit there is.
There are no answer.
Or how matter how sad and tolerant my mother can be.
There's nothing, that can be any better.
Maybe pray.

The older I get,
The more vulnerable thing get,
and the more its harder to remove any scars.

As I stepped into my longest relationship with my boyfriend,
& as I am slowly going to get kicked out of school

I realized it's always best, to laugh everything through, be happy.
Cos' everything is really to vulnerable, too prone, to heart breaks and hurts.

Yet, throughout all.
I can really say I am loved, by the each and every individuals that I love.
Not reciprocate.
But true enough, I still believe
to fight against all odds.

Cos if I don't believe in this,
I have no idea what to ever believe anymore.
There is still something worth living and worth holding on to.

Honestly, I can't wait to grow up.
I wanna grow up, live in the harsh society and get lost in the dog eat dog world.
I wanna grow up and earn my own money.
I wanna see my girls grow up with me also, and be their braids maid.
I wanna grow up and fly out on my own.
I wanna grow up and live my own.

Suddenly, there is so much things I wanna do.
And I can't wait to do.

Teenage-hood seemed a torture.

HEhh.

Not easy.