complete.

Complete is subjective.
Completion, can actually change someone's life, now and when time comes.

As cliche as everything will sound, I was indeed incomplete.
Till, one fine day, Daniel Lau stepped into my miserable, yet interesting life.

I knew his existence, due to my ex-boyfriend.

So when I joined Archery, I was scaling for as what Derrick described "big size" guy.
Saw his one day in club room when talking to Wendy.

And I thought to myself. that's Daniel Lau.
It never ever occurred to me that one year later, he would be the one, holding my hand, walking through life and bringing me to maturity and grow with me.
Never thought, but yet.
It did happen.

He wasn't very friendly towards me for quite some time.
I'm like an overactive younger sis, longing for the older brother to talk to her.
Yet, he was the most simple guy I've ever met, listening to his MP3, indulging in his plain water, doing his own things.
I was very disturbed by the fact he was so not friendly, yet he could have so much fun with the other buddies.

I came to know the reason why anyway.

So we did not talk much, interact.
Just acknowledge each other's existence and I guess that's it.
I knew a Daniel Lau exist & he know a Tammy Chua exist.

He is always known to me as Ah Lau, god knows since when.
I was craving for a time to talk to my boyfriend's cousin.

One day, problems arise and I went to him crying, not knowing who to turn to.
I poured my heart out, and he talked to me more, pat on my shoulder like a little sister, saying everything will be alright.
I guess,somehow I knew, my tears had shocked him as I am always bouncing around, happy.
& I showed him, how vulnerable I was, actually.

Soon, he was there, giving me advices, talking to me, playing with me, we came up with games to have fun during training along with Jian Hui and others.
Very little girls in the club, so I hang out with so "Ah Lau" & "Bai Lian".

Both of them, eventually became emotional pillars for me,
like big brothers I can always turn to.

So Ah Lau was in my life already.


This was the first picture I took with him. During my first competition, Inter-ITE. I remembered him telling me before the competition starts, "If being with him is too hard for you, let go, you'll see better ones."

I was too in love that point of time, I guess.


He's what I described, happily into his plain water, & me like a little sister all over him. Haha.

Since we're close, I have this fetish of biting him and Jian Hui, causing them to siam me all the time.
They was awesome friends, and I totally had no idea how he tolerated how stubborn and how I always wanted things my way.

We went out had fun, bite him, to release my stress.
He was a poor thing, but I guess, he just had play along, as a friend and as a big brother.


I lost my boyfriend, the next day.

I cried, like I had 10 litres of tears.
I vent I did everything to vent.

Daniel, Jian hui, Jing Hao, Ong, Kelly, Even Hong Hui was there.
Brought me to eat, yet I couldn't.
Bought me Ice Kacang, and kept feeding me.
Bought me a Stitch to make me smile.

I thank you all.

I wasn't okay,
But they were just there, buddies, brothers and went through the break up with me along with all my girlfriends.
Nothing struck me until one day, KaiLin said this to me,

"Have it ever came across your mind that Derrick is just that passerby in your life, and the connection for you and Daniel?"

No way, and It will never be.
I told her and myself, aware of my feelings and his.

All the time, he was the buddy and my best friend.

Most of the people are starting to feel our compatibility, just not the two of us.
We are always like this:




Buddy like. & that's all.


I always enjoyed watching him shoot.
No idea why though he is such a plucker.

For a long time, we were just friends, buddies, as the story goes.
I realize, he is not ordinary.
He is someone, blur forgetful, sometimes insensitive,
But there is something about him that is good, beyond words.

His Sincerity and his Loyalty.
Something so precious, you seldom find in guys these days. His sincerity, was something that captured my dead heart.

As time past when we knew each other better, he become someone that I will always have texting with me, calling when I want to hang out.
Somehow, a part of me.




I started to feel weird when Ah Lau is not around or I never text him.

One day Hong Hui told me, "Didn't you realize that you laugh more, smile more, enjoy more whenever Daniel Lau is around?"

I realized.
Something is bubbling inside, some emotions are starting to spur.

I did felt happier when he was around, that's because he is my buddy right?

*

Very fast, we spent christmas together along with Wendy, Jian Hui, Daryl, Teng Ng.
Awesome christmas with them, I swear.
It's always entertaining to Wendy.

I grew very comfortable around Ah Lau that I am who I want to be, even when I nap till I am totally tak glam, he will be there to make sure I don't catch a cold, or if I am too uncomfortable cos it feels warm.
It's the sincerity he had that is so pure.


Poor thing.





I guess, feelings and emotions are hard to control.

We had countless fun outings, to everywhere you can think of, watch movies, climb hills.
We interacted more and more.
And I see a good guy with a bright future ahead.

He was there, during competitions, everything just felt right, when he's there.
MY all time favorite picture.





He learnt how to counter me too.



When I was most nervous, he wa there, supporting along with my one and only di di.


One day, I guess I guess knew.
He's the one, that I really want,


And I guess, at that time, he knew his feelings too.

There was no sweet courtship of going out on dates, movies, him giving me flowers, or whatever sweet stuff that can be thought of.

But we were clear what we wanted and who we wanted.
Everyone thought we were a couple.

But it will till 15 March, my buddy Ah Lau was my boyfriend.




He taught me, life valuable lessons.
We learned form each other, so much, and I had the most precious thing, that same sincerity that is still so pure and genuine.



I still have so much more to learn about him.
And we fought, quarreled cried, yet, I still need him, cos he's the one, that walked through my darkest time, knew my weakness and loved me selflessly, and it was all sincere.
The sincerity, I need to used and learn to love him more, and not my stubbornness and selfishness.

I guess, our love, started form Archery. If not, how will I know such a great guy I love.
I always will want to see, the guy I love, doing my favorite sport as we grow together.

Thank you,

For loving me.


I will hold on, and LEARN, like how you did.
We'll walk, and walk this path, till we can't walk no more, then we'll try skating or what :)
And stay by here, and hold my hand like how you did the first time you held it .
Don't let go of my tiny tiny hands, though it slips away easy,

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