Never Ever

I've dealt with all this for 19 years 6 months on my own.
I'm sure I can go on for the rest of my life until all of you die.

I can I will.
I am going to force myself to.

I am attached with a boyfriend that I thought will ALWAYS be THERE you know, PHYSICALLY, have loads of friends that love me.

Yet, I still have to go through all this on my own.

Since when did you tell me, "you'll never have to go through all this on your own anymore"
Or even, "I'll be there for you?"

Never, close to 6 months, NEVER
And forever never.

I realize the cost of x10s.
The value and importance of them, is higher than me.

Right, BOYFRIEND?