i will try, for your love.

Working these days, overtime.

There's nothing to do even if I had money to spend.

No one to go out with and shop, everybody is so busy.

But but,

Shopping with darling Yao Hong tomorrow at bugis before work.

Mad Love-d.

It's close to 3 and I'm emo-ing, been sleeping at like 5? 6? and waking up at 10?

I miss that stupid boy so so much.

I've not talk to him for 3 days before, but that's when there's cold war going on lurhs.

And he has no freaking idea when he's back.

So I have no idea too.

I miss his presence & his stupid nonsense.

Sigh.

Stupid baby, come home soon please please.

I'm still cracking my brains on how to celebrate his birthday lo.

I already know what to buy for his present le.

Though it will cost me a bomb, but I'm damn sure he will like it!

Yay-ness, can't wait to see that silly boy's smily face.

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Anyways,

It's rather odd.

Each time, when each year is coming to an end, I will feel this extreme reluctance to let go of each year of the memories.

And this year come by, I surprisingly looking forward to the next year, for MORE memories.

I guess, I am growing up after so much.

It's rare, for everything to be so in place, family, relationships, friends.

I guess this is what making me look forward to next year.

It's been a great time with all my girls, and dude.

And it's a great up and down year with my boyfriend and family, even for me.

My longest relationship so far and I grow and learn from each fight, each time we give in to each other, each time i get to know each other more and more.

And to accept how each other.

Same goes at home, I guess, my relationship with daniel let me see a different light at home. I understood love and my parents.

And I understood, the love at home, though I hardly feel them, we all compromised, and now we're all happy actually.

It pissed me off when people say we're young and don't know what is love. Some people may live till 50 before they know.

Some had their true love they've been dating when they are 13 to the rest of their life.

So nobody should question anyone's knowledge of love.

Even teenager, some do know love, more than adults do.

Love is beautiful and subjective.

But love, also is the cause of pain and agony.

I believe, we live to love.

I guess, my biggest wish for 2010 is for Mom and Dad to stop questioning the things I do, I believe, I am mature to know what I am doing and I know what can make me happy.

I can be honest that, they don't know what I want.

Please accept Daniel, like how grandma accepted daddy, against all odds.

And to get my stupid license, no matter how much mom hates that idea of me driving.

And and and. A decent full time office job :)

It's gonna be a blast,

I'm going thailand with baby.

And it'll be my one year with that love.

It's gonna be a great adventure.

And bumpy ride.

2010, bring it on.

Hang in there,

Tammy.